I Want To Break Free....

The kid has grown. Yet the adult can't seem to accept it. The kid wants to roam free but the adult wants the kid to stay a kid forever. Think I'm talking about a parent-child dilemma? Not even close! I'm talking about the me dilemma. The person born 28 years ago is now a full-grown woman, but the full-grown woman wants to remain being a kid. How do you make these two worlds work hand in hand. Not an easy feat.

Sometimes I just wish I could throw in the towel and behave like a child for the rest of my life. But biology and the ever-moving process of time doesn't allow for that. Decisions have to be made, bills paid, work done, car driven, house cleaned, money made, life lived....the list goes on and on....

How do you stau a kid and adhere to the rules of biology and grow up?

Word Play 101

Have you ever taken a second to ponder over our Malay language and some of its words? Sometimes I wonder what those people in DBP are actually doing because the way I look at it, they seem to be resting on their laurels and not doing much. Especially since information becomes informasi and globalization becomes globalisasi and the list goes on and on. But the best has got to be these two words: didemutualisasikan and diliberalisasikan. Whatever happened to dibebaskan? Doesn’t that carry the same meaning as that diliberablablabla word? Perhaps dibebaskan is just not fancy enough. I mean seriously, DBP, what the hell do you people do? Add a di and a kan and give yourselves a pat on the back for a job well done?!

What about words like serenti, pengurup and menyampah? Hahahah now this will boggle your mind, I kid you not! Just work with me for a second here. If a word begins with a se- or a pe- and me-, they are known as imbuhan hence there’s a root word in there somewhere. For example the root word for penyapu is sapu. Therefore for the three words I mentioned above, I challenge you to tell me what is their root!

Here’s my take on it….

The root word for serenti is renti (which means stop according to the northern dialect!). Serenti is a place for drug addicts (oh wait sorry, the politically correct term these days would be drug users!) so the root word renti works fine here. In short, rentikanlah isap dadah tu! Hence, serenti.

As for pengurup, that has me stumped! Could it be kurup, or urup or ngurup? Macam cakap jawa la pulak!

Menyampah literally means having had enough of someone or something to the point of hatred. So the logical root word here, according to word etymology by me 101, is sampah! You hate sampah, don’t you? So that’s where menyampah came from!

I’ll bet there are more of these words around, but you get my drift.

Back on the screen....

After a few years of staying behind the camera, I went back on screen for a short stint as the model for Adnan Othman's video clip for his song Norma. Yes, I was Norma.

Had to embody the perempuan melayu terakhir thing but I guess it turned out okay. Not too bad. Of all my past acting gigs, I was never asked to do a video clip, so this was a first. But I had a good time. We shot at Dataran Merdeka, luckily they weren't too many onlookers with the exception of a few tourists who found the whole thing amusing. The crew was nice and funny and made everything easy.

Adnan Othman was a nice man, very humble and obliging.

The heat didn't seem to bother him much. He was willing to sit in the middle of that area playing his guitar for the clip. And then we had like a little dating scene which was funny but turned out to be a lot of fun.

I must say these past few days have been quite a few firsts for me. But all in all, I enjoyed every single moment of it!!!!

My Directorial Debut!

After almost ten years of devoting myself to the exciting yet gruesome world of entertainment in this country, I finally got myself a directing gig. It wasn't much but I cherish the opportunity. A big thank you to Dreamchaser Entertainment who placed their trust in me and allowed me to direct the video clip for Azlina Aziz's Di Sini Buat Pertama Kali! (hahahah now that's what I call a freakish coincidence! But that's another story!). So there I was, last Sunday, August 16th 2009, my concept, my ideas, my directorial debut!

Initially it was supposed to be Wajah Siapakah Di Hatimu, but someone made a ruckus and insisted that it be Di Sini Buat Pertama Kali. So I scrapped the ideas I had for Wajah Siapakah and came up with brand new ones for the Pertama Kali. Simple ideas, I wasn't even sure how they would gel together, but I had faith and I decided to go ahead and just do it.

The first location was Quattro at Avenue K! Macha's place.

Felt right at home there considering I've hung out there quite a few times. Did the first scene at the stage section of the Spring Lounge. The next scene was at the Rain Pathway. Beautiful corridor made for a brilliant scene.

If Azlina was agreeable to rainwater, I would have had the management turn on the sprinklers at the pathway but never mind, the scene still came out beautifully. Then we shot an autograph mob scene at the entrance to the Spring Lounge.

I had my doubts about the male model we were using but he turned out ok on camera.

The last scene at Quattro was at the Winter Bar.

After that we went back to the studio to finish up a few more scenes there and then at 10pm it was a wrap! I was on a directing high that was beyond words. Couldn't describe how ecstatic I was!

Anyway, yesterday I went to see the editor and we sat down to finalize some adjustments. The video looked great! I mean it wasn't totally fantastic, I know I could have done better, but all things considering it turned out absolutely great! Everything just gelled together brilliantly. Thanks to John, the editor who cut it up and joined everything together nicely.

All in all, can't wait for my next gig! Azlina Aziz was extremely nice and co-operative. She was humble and obliging. Very understanding to the fact that this is my first directing job. The male model also worked out fine although I had my doubts when I first laid eyes on him. With the exception of the Wicked Witch of the West whom I completely ignored throughout the whole thing, everything went off without a hitch! Oh and of course,how can I forget, a big thank you to Terry and Ray for believing in me!

Retards!

I have always wondered why do seemingly normal people can't help themselves from parking in handicapped spots? The kesimpulan is; they are retarded. So by that logic they qualify lah! Bengang gila when they masuk ikut sedap hati ja parking kat tempat handicapped. Bukannya matter of life and death pun, setakat nak pi makan McDonalds ja! Takpun pi shopping. It's really sad when parking authorities have to resort to cordoning off the handicapped slots with chains just to make sure non-qualified people don't park there. So the actually handicapped ones have to go hunt down for the authorities, ask them to remove the chains and then park. Tak masuk akal langsung. But I understand they have to do that sebab Malaysians are so considerate. They park at handicapped spots and make life difficult for other people.

Itu belum mention lagi pasal the double parkers. Or as I would like to call them, the double-fuckers!

But that's another story....

Terlanjur Bicara....

Had a long, busy day at work today. Was looking forward to heading back to Kota Damansara and meet up with Ako for drinks and catching up. But just before I nak leave the office ni, kena lah ada benda yang jadi that is making me feel like banging my head against the wall.

In all honesty, I just don't have any more tears to cry. Yes I feel the pain. But it's nothing new dah. Apa-apa ja lah. Say what you want. You have the right to. Nobody controls your life.

Kesempurnaan wanita terletak pada mata yang melihat dan hati yang menilai. Andainya baik baginya, maka baiklah. Buruk baginya, maka buruklah.

Whatever lah...as I said say what you want. As for me, right now I just want to go and meet up with Ako and forget all my troubles.

Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata? Hmm.... ada lah hati yang terluka...

Yang lama dijaga rapi, yang baru adakalanya tidak dipeduli. Dibetulkan juga yang lama. Dipelihara bagaikan menatang minyak yang penuh. Walhal yang dipelihara dan dijaga itu tak semestinya yang terbaik. Tapi apakan daya, hati dah terpaut pada yang lama. Yang baru tak mahu dilepaskan, tapi yang lama juga masih dalam genggaman. Bila yang baru terguris, dipertahankan juga yang lama. Bila yang baru menangis? Dilempar pula ungkapan yang pedih.

Jawabnya belilah ubat kuning dan plaster sendiri kat farmasi, lepas tu balut luka tu sendiri... Senang cerita!

Tuah & Teja's Weekend...

Although my weekend did not really turn out as planned; work stuff cropped up and I couldn't stick to my original plan of driving back to my hometown, it still turned out rather beautifully. Was at work on Friday, but we did manage to get in a couple of hours of dating, and on Saturday we managed to spend some time together.

We decided to act like tourists and headed to Aquaria in KLCC. Had a blast although I think Aquaria overcharges. When the whole thing was over, we were both like, that's it?? I only saw the sharks for a while. It was kinda cute when he started humming the Jaws theme song when we were in that underwater tunnel thing. Would have loved to dive in with them! Although he was already squinting his eyes at me when I said I wanted to do that. You only live once, right?! So what the hell, dive in!

And here we have Mr Tuah with the piranhas! They didn't look as vicious as they did in the movie...

On Saturday, we went out for lunch and a bit of grocery shopping. Lunch was good although the food could have been better. I always select the wrong restaurants! Looks can be deceiving!

Don't let his look of enjoyment fool you... it doesn't take much to please my man, food-wise. He's not a picky eater, unlike yours truly...

I had the Nasi Putih Sambal Sotong with Belacan Long Beans. Sounds good, doesn't it? Well it wasn't that bad, but it wasn't that great either. He had some noodle soup thingy which was kinda bland. The restaurant at fault here was Wang Cafe in Dataran Sunway.

After grocery shopping, he headed back and I headed for Mid Valley. Did some serious shopping. Therapeutic indeed! Of course the crowd was not that therapeutic. And the massive traffic outside Mid Valley. I ended up handing my car over to the Valet Parking. God bless them! Bought me a pair of shoes from NOSE! Lovin' it! 4-inch heels! Tuah tenggelam next to me! Can't wear it on dates! And then while I was shopping I came across a booth selling something which brought me back to my school days. I decided what the hell, what better occasion to behave like a school kid again. So I threw caution to the wind, personalized it and bought it. Now I wear it with much pride! Hahahah! Although I still feel very much like a budak sekolah, but what the hell lah kan?!

This has got to be the most pointless posting in the history of blogposts! Oh well, I just felt like sharing... So what the heck... Will try to get back to my philosophical self in the next one... For now, welcome to the blonde side of me...